Numb. November 3rd, 2022.


 I don’t have a clear vision in my mind for how I’d like this post to begin. Four days ago I began taking some medication to hopefully help me feel more like myself again. Today I’m feeling like an emotional zombie. Like I’m numb inside, hollow. Not feeling a lot and disconnected. I still have some anxiety however at least I’m not crying anymore. I also still have some triggering moments or day-nightmare-dreams, but my heart isn’t racing nearly as much as it was before. …This is going to take some getting used to.

I am not sleeping well either. First two nights, the next morning I was still feeling exhausted and sleepy. Then last night I just had the worst time sleeping and couldn’t nap or rest all day. My appetite has gone from barely being able to eat, to I have no sensation of hunger. Try not to worry though, I’m doing what I can to take care of myself.

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